Shut out all of your past except that which will help you weather your tomorrows. – William Osler, Canadian physician
Memory can be used for good or for evil. If you use your past as a source of learning, it’s worth remembering. If, however, all you do is mull over your mistakes and punish yourself for your failures, it’s a waste of time. Rehashing failure can paralyze you in mortal fear of making another mistake, which, of course, just makes the feeling worse and practically guarantees future letdowns. The key to making meaningful changes is to pay more attention to the future than to the past. Have you ever noticed that the best athletes also have the shortest and most selective memories? Instead of dwelling on a missed shot or a flawed dive, they concentrate on making corrections and getting the next one right. It’s as if the failed attempt never happened. It’s forgotten and they don’t fear trying again. If you mess up, even in an epic, life-altering way, work hard to leave it behind and concentrate on the possibilities yet to come. Tomorrow is much brighter when it’s not smeared with a fixation on yesterday.
Can we say a goo AMEN to this wonderful SparkPeople.com Healthy Reflection? I have several of these saved that I need to blog on. Just haven’t had the time. And why do I NOW have the time. As the wonderful webcam (yeah, I finally figured it out) tells us I am not at home. Both good and bad about that.
Me and the PINK laptop are road tripping to our local library. I LOVE free WIFI! LOL!! I even love more the nice peace and quiet that I am geting. OK so I do have on head phones downloading my favorite rock music, but I have no OTHER disstractions. I had to get away fom the zoo for teo reasons. ONE: the danged wind was freaking with our phone lines. I need to put a danged windmill on my danged hill. 😛 TWO: Lack of internet connection was getting me testy with the 17yo. I figured distance and Rick correcting her would help. We will see upon my return. At the very least I can’t complain about the lack of internet connection at the library. Just can’t get EVERYWHERE I wanna go, but heh, I’m suppose to be working. LOL!
So here I sit in sweats. Actually sweats that say WORK SUCKS… I’m going to Remington Park. LOL! Yeah, that always gets looks. 😛 I have been through some of the bills. Still need to balance the check books. Gotta start putting stuff into the ranch spreadsheet. ACK! And have no excuse about being interupted or a danged cat sitting on my stuff. 🙂 Alsmost even caught up on emails. Still have a few to go through.
Got to visit my new doctor yesterday. Then learned that I need to take Allyson to visit her soon also. I really like my new doc. She is a horse person and didn’t even question my laudry list of crap horses have done to me. LOL! She loved how throurough I was with the info I gave her. We didn’t change any of my meds. She even agreed that the Cymbalta was a god thing with step kids. She understood having them also. Gotta love this new doctor. 🙂
Then I thought I was going to torture the kids and I think they ended up torturing me worse. I took them to the eye doctor. I really think I need to take duct tape with me when I take them in public. That’s the only way to keep thier mouths shut. Maybe I just need to take one at a time. They just about wore me and the eye doctor out. Dr. Judy thinks Ashley is brain damaged. (No big suprise there!) Her eyes don’t focus right on the horizon or the up and down orentation. That’s why she tilts her head to one side when she concentrates. It actually could have been caused from a horse injury when she was little. Dr. Judy wants to do more testing, unfortunately Ashley is not covered by our insurance. I was just wanting to make sure that she wouldn’t wreck the car when she started driving. We will probably get her some reading glasses and let her fix herself when she gets insurance.
Allyson’s eyes were interesting. She is kinda cross-eyed and has problems on the vertical (opposite from Ashley’s problem). Both girls have musclural issues with their eyes. Allyson has actually had surgery as a baby to correct hers and Dr. Judy was very impressed. Cheryl had told Allyson that she would be blind by 16 to 18. Dr. Judy said she was wrong. Her eyes are in great health. Just the left one over developed and the right one is way weak. Unfortunately, she seems to have been having migranes that we get to visit the other Dr. about. The migranes are causing her to lose sight in the strong eye for short periods of time. We will get the physical side checked out to make sure it’s nothing else and then go back to the eye doc to finish with treatment.
And during the whole ENTIRE time we were in the eye doc’s office the kids would not quit talking. AARRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! THey almost got on Dr. Judy’s nerve until she finally realized we were doing the best we could. I just never know their eys could be so screwed up. And to top it off Dr. Judy would like to see Rain. It’s bad when your family has such wierd eye problems that the doc wants to see the 6 month old to make sure there aren’t any problems with her. That was an interesting call. 🙂 I didn’t eve know that they could do eye exams on that little of kids, but know that it’s a good idea.
Well, guess I best get back to the rat killing. Gotta go check email. Get it knocked out. Man I hate the freaking wind. Hope it gets better before 5:30PM when the library closes. 😛 Hope you and yours have a wonderful weekend. I know I am, but just until I have to go back home. Why does even paying bills seem nicer in the peace and quiet of the library? Awe, nice to be away from the ZOO!
Deb in Claremore, OK
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